The room was empty. I stood there, stunned, all by myself.

Is this… a breakup?!

Rong Si saw how pathetic I looked.

“You look so miserable, I’ll give your divine power back.”

I whispered, “No need.”

Rong Si: “Are you crazy? You’ll die.”

Die?

I think I’ve already tasted the pain of separation from love, of yearning for what cannot be.

What would death feel like?

The throbbing pain in my heart gradually spread to my limbs.

I never knew that unrequited love could make someone so agonizingly desperate.

I’ve seen the most beautiful sights in the world, drunk the strongest, most exquisite wines.

I’ve idled away millennia of fleeting time.

I’ve met the best Xie Yu in the world, experienced the most passionate love.

So I can’t bear the endless, long solitude after ascending to godhood.

Turns out I’m a River God who’s so afraid of loneliness.

I feigned nonchalance: “I want to experience what it’s like to be human. If I’m really on my last legs, it won’t be too late for you to give my divine power back then.”

Rong Si tossed me a small bell, repeatedly cautioning me.

“Remember, don’t forget. Summon me anytime, and I’ll come.”

Who knew this sharp-tongued, tsundere guy was actually a warm-hearted youth?

As I walked out of the house, utterly distraught, I still heard the servants whispering.

“The Old Master was cured this time thanks to Miss Mu finding an expert. I told you, there must have been something unclean in the house!

“Miss Mu is beautiful and capable, and now she’s saved the Old Master’s life. I think her and the Young Master’s matter is set in stone!

“But doesn’t the Young Master like that Miss Ze?”

“Miss Ze probably doesn’t like the Young Master, otherwise, she wouldn’t have left when the Old Master was so ill and the Young Master was so upset.”

“And I heard the Madam really likes Miss Mu. Both families are very pleased…”

When I reached the main hall, I heard Xie Yu’s Grandfather angrily scolding him.

No matter how much he scolded, Xie Yu remained silent.

Xie Yu’s Grandfather slammed the table in anger: “The Xie family doesn’t have an ingrate like you! Ze Quan is such a good girl! The debt Grandpa owes the Mu family, Grandpa will repay himself! Why are you meddling?!”

Xie Yu still didn’t say a word.

I even heard the dull thud of a cane hitting him.

After a long while, Xie Yu’s suppressed voice finally spoke.

“She has her own path to walk, she has a great future ahead of her. If we truly care for her, we shouldn’t hold her back.”

Grandfather was silent for a long time: “Are you truly letting go?”

Xie Yu: “Anyway, Mom wants me to marry into the Mu family. I think we’re a good match.”

So that’s how it was.

Xie Yu had merely faced reality.

He saw that I couldn’t be by his side when he needed companionship the most.

He saw that he couldn’t stay with me forever either.

He thought he wasn’t my first priority, my first choice.

But actually, ever since his senior year of high school, he had slowly become my first priority, my first choice.

The room was empty, and I stood there alone in a daze.

Am I… heartbroken!?

Rong Si looked at me, seeing how pathetic I was.

“Since you look so miserable, I’ll give your divine power back to you.”

I said softly, “I don’t want it anymore.”

Rong Si: “Are you crazy? You’ll die.”

Die?

I felt as though I had already tasted the pain of parting from loved ones and the suffering of unfulfilled desires.

What would death feel like, then?

The throbbing pain in my heart gradually spread to my four limbs.

I never knew that loving someone and not being able to be with them could cause such agonizing despair.

I had already seen the most beautiful scenery in the world and drunk the strongest, most mellow wine.

I had idled away thousands of years of flowing time.

I had met the best Xie Yu in the world and experienced the most lingering affection.

So, I couldn’t bear the endless, long loneliness that would follow after ascending to become a High God.

It turned out I was a River God who was so afraid of solitude.

I feigned a relaxed tone: “I want to taste what it’s like to be human. If the day comes when I really can’t hold on anymore, it won’t be too late for you to come back and return my divine power.”

Rong Si threw me a small bell and warned me repeatedly.

“Remember, don’t forget. Summon me at any time, and I’ll come.”

Who would have thought this sharp-tongued, tsundere guy was actually a warm-hearted youth?

As I walked out of the house, lost in thought, I heard the servants whispering among themselves.

“It’s all thanks to the expert Miss Jin brought that the old master was cured this time. I told you, there must have been something dirty in the house!

“Miss Jin is beautiful and capable, and now that she’s saved the old master’s life, I’d say her marriage to the Young Master is a done deal!

“But doesn’t the Young Master like that Miss Ze?”

“Miss Ze probably doesn’t like the Young Master. Otherwise, why would she leave when the old master was critically ill and the Young Master was so distressed?”

“And I heard the Madam likes Miss Jin very much. Both families are very satisfied…”

When I reached the main hall, I heard Xie Yu’s grandfather scolding him angrily.

No matter how much he was scolded, Xie Yu didn’t say a word.

Xie Yu’s grandfather slapped the table in anger: “The Xie family doesn’t have an ungrateful wolf like you! Ze Quan is such a good girl! If I owe the Jin family, I’ll pay them back myself! Why are you meddling!”

Xie Yu still remained silent.

I even heard the dull thud of a cane hitting his body.

After a long time, Xie Yu’s restrained voice finally rang out.

“She has her own path to walk, and she has a bright future. If we truly want what’s best for her, we shouldn’t hold her back.”

Grandfather was silent for a long time: “Are you really going to let go?”

Xie Yu: “Anyway, Mom wants me to marry into the Jin family, and I think we’re a good match.”

So that was it.

Xie Yu had simply seen reality clearly.

He saw clearly that I couldn’t be by his side when he needed companionship the most.

He saw clearly that he couldn’t stay with me for long either.

He thought he wasn’t my first priority, my first choice.

In truth, ever since his senior year of high school, he had slowly become my first priority and my first choice.

The room was empty, and I stood there alone, dazed.

Am I… heartbroken!?

Rong Si saw my pitiful state.

“Since you look so miserable, I’ll give your divine power back to you.”

I said softly, “I don’t want it anymore.”

Rong Si: “Are you crazy? You’ll die.”

Die?

I felt as though I had already tasted the pain of parting from a loved one and the suffering of unfulfilled desires.

What would death feel like, then?

The throbbing pain in my heart gradually spread to my entire body and limbs.

I never knew that unrequited love could cause such desperate agony.

I had already seen the most beautiful scenery in the world and drunk the strongest, most mellow wine.

I had idled through thousands of years of flowing time.

I had met the best Xie Yu in the world and experienced the most lingering emotions.

So, I couldn’t bear the endless, long loneliness that would follow after ascending to become a high deity.

It turns out I am a River God who is so afraid of being alone.

I feigned a relaxed tone: “I want to try what it feels like to be human. If the day comes when I really can’t hold on, it won’t be too late for you to return my divine power then.”

Rong Si threw me a small bell and urged me repeatedly.

“Remember, don’t forget—summon me anytime, and I’ll come.”

Who knew this sharp-tongued, arrogant guy was actually a warm-hearted youth?

As I walked out of the house in a daze, I heard the servants whispering among themselves.

「”It’s all thanks to the expert Miss Jin brought that the Old Master was cured this time. I told you, there must have been something dirty in the house!”

「”Miss Jin is beautiful and capable, and now she’s saved the Old Master’s life. I’d say her marriage to the Young Master is a done deal!”

「”But doesn’t the Young Master like that Miss Ze?”

「”Miss Ze probably doesn’t like the Young Master. Otherwise, why would she leave when the Old Master was critically ill and the Young Master was so distressed?”

「”And I heard the Madam likes Miss Jin very much. Both families are very satisfied…”」

When I reached the main hall, I heard Xie Yu’s grandfather’s voice berating him angrily.

No matter how much he was scolded, Xie Yu remained silent.

Xie Yu’s grandfather slammed the table in anger: “The Xie family doesn’t have an ungrateful wretch like you! Ze Quan is such a good girl! If I owe the Jin family, I’ll pay them back myself! Why are you meddling in this!?”

Xie Yu still didn’t say a word.

I even heard the dull thud of a cane hitting his body.

After a long time, Xie Yu’s restrained voice finally rang out.

“She has her own path to walk, she has a bright future. If we truly want what’s best for her, we shouldn’t hold her back.”

Grandfather was silent for a long time: “Are you really going to let go?”

Xie Yu: “Anyway, Mom wants me to have a marriage alliance with the Jin family. I think we’re a good match.”

So that was it.

Xie Yu had simply seen the reality of the situation.

He saw that when he needed companionship the most, I couldn’t be by his side.

He saw that he couldn’t stay with me for long either.

He thought he wasn’t my first priority, my first choice.

In fact, since his senior year of high school, he had slowly become my first priority, my first choice.

With the room empty, I stood there, stunned and alone.

Did I just… get my heart broken!?

Rong Si looked at me, seeing how pathetic I appeared.

“Since you look so miserable, I’ll return your divine power to you.”

I whispered, “No, I don’t want it.”

Rong Si: “Are you insane? You’ll die.”

Die?

I feel like I’ve already tasted the bitterness of parting and the agony of unrequited love.

What could death possibly feel like in comparison?

The sharp pain in my heart began to spread, radiating through my limbs.

I never knew that unrequited love could be so agonizing, so despairing.

I have seen the most beautiful scenery in the world and tasted the strongest, finest wines.

I have wasted away a thousand years of fleeting time.

I have met the best Xie Yu in the world and experienced the most lingering, tender affection.

And so, I simply cannot bear the endless, suffocating loneliness that comes after ascending to High God status.

It turns out I am such a River God, so terrified of being alone.

I feigned a casual tone: “I want to try living as a human. If the day really comes when I’m about to kick the bucket, it won’t be too late for you to give my power back.”

Rong Si tossed me a small bell, warning me repeatedly.

“Don’t you forget it. Summon me whenever you need me.”

Who would have thought that such a sharp-tongued, tsundere guy was actually a warm-hearted youth?

As I walked out of the house, feeling like a lost soul, I overheard the servants whispering.

“It’s all thanks to Miss Jin finding that expert that the old master recovered. I told you, there was definitely something dirty in this house!”

“Miss Jin is beautiful and capable, and now that she’s saved the old master’s life, I’d say her future with the young master is set in stone!”

“But didn’t the young master like that Miss Ze?”

“Miss Ze probably didn’t like him back. Otherwise, why would she leave when the old master was so ill and the young master was in such pain?”

“And I heard the Madam really likes Miss Jin. Both families are very satisfied…”

When I reached the main hall, I heard Xie Yu’s grandfather scolding him.

No matter how he was berated, Xie Yu remained silent.

Xie Yu’s grandfather pounded the table in anger: “The Xie family has no place for a white-eyed wolf like you! Miss Ze is such a wonderful girl! The debt I owe the Jin family is for me to repay! Why are you sticking your nose into it!”

Xie Yu still didn’t say a word.

I even heard the dull thud of a cane striking his body.

After a long while, Xie Yu’s suppressed voice finally rang out.

“She has her own path to follow, and she has a bright future. If we truly care about her, we shouldn’t hold her back.”

Grandfather was silent for a long time: “Are you really going to let her go?”

Xie Yu: “Mom wants me to marry into the Jin family anyway, and I think we’re a good match.”

So that was it.

Xie Yu had simply seen the reality of the situation.

He saw that when he needed companionship the most, I couldn’t be by his side.

He saw that he couldn’t stay with me for the long haul either.

He thought he wasn’t my first priority, my first choice.

In truth, ever since his senior year of high school, he had slowly become my first priority, my first choice.

The room was empty, and I stood there, stunned.

Was I… heartbroken!?

Rong Si saw how pathetic I looked.

“Seeing you so miserable, I’ll give your divine power back.”

I said softly, “No need.”

Rong Si: “Are you crazy? You’ll die.”

Die?

I felt like I had already tasted the pain of love, separation, and unfulfilled desires.

What would death feel like?

The sharp pain in my heart gradually spread to my limbs.

I never knew that unrequited love could cause such agonizing despair.

I had seen the most beautiful sights in the world, drunk the strongest, most exquisite wines.

I had idled away countless centuries.

I had met the best Xie Yu in the world and experienced the most profound emotions.

So I couldn’t bear the endless, long solitude after ascending to godhood.

Turns out I was a River God who was so afraid of loneliness.

I pretended to be casual: “I want to experience what it’s like to be human. If the day comes when I’m truly on the verge of dying, it won’t be too late for you to return my divine power then.”

Rong Si tossed me a small bell and repeatedly cautioned me.

“Don’t forget, summon me anytime, and I’ll come.”

Who knew this sharp-tongued, tsundere kid was actually so kind-hearted?

As I walked out of the room, distraught, I overheard the servants whispering.

“This time, the Old Master was cured thanks to Miss Mu finding a master. I told you, there must have been something unclean in the house!

“Miss Mu is beautiful and capable, and now she’s saved the Old Master’s life. I think her and Young Master’s marriage is a done deal!

“But didn’t Young Master like Miss Ze?”

“Miss Ze probably didn’t like Young Master, otherwise she wouldn’t have left when the Old Master was critically ill and Young Master was so distressed.”

“And I heard Madam really likes Miss Mu, both families are very pleased…”

When I reached the living room, I heard Xie Yu’s grandfather angrily scolding him.

No matter how he cursed, Xie Yu remained silent.

Xie Yu’s grandfather slammed the table in anger: “The Xie family has no place for an ungrateful wretch like you! Ze Quan is such a good girl! The Xie family’s debt to the Mu family will be repaid by me! What are you meddling for?!”

Xie Yu still didn’t say a word.

I even heard the dull thud of a cane hitting him.

After a long while, Xie Yu’s suppressed voice finally rang out.

“She has her own path to walk, she has a bright future. If we truly care about her, we shouldn’t hold her back.”

Grandfather was silent for a long time: “Are you truly letting go?”

Xie Yu: “Anyway, Mom wants me to marry into the Mu family. I think we’re a good match.”

So that’s how it was.

Xie Yu had simply faced reality.

He realized that I couldn’t be by his side when he needed companionship most.

He realized that he couldn’t stay with me for long either.

He thought he wasn’t my first priority, my first choice.

But actually, ever since his senior year of high school, he had slowly become my first priority, my first choice.